Adi Da and Adidam: Blogs from Devotees

last updated: September 09, 2016 (06:00)

Welcome to our devotee blog page!

It's all too easy for a notion like "devotees" or "the Adidam community" to remain very abstract and fuzzy (or just a stereotype or caricature) — until you come in contact with the living human individuals who make up our spiritual community.

The best way to get a better, more human feeling of devotees as real people practicing the Way of Adidam is to visit (or phone, or email) devotees, or attend events, in an Adidam region near you. (Many regions also have their own websites.)

devotees of Adi DaThe Adi Da Up Close site is also great for enabling you to hear the voices of devotees in our community directly, through our personal accounts of our Spiritual Master, Adi Da Samraj, our relationship with Him, and our practice of the Way of Adidam. The site contains stories from hundreds of devotees and appreciators.

Another way to get a feeling for Adidam as a practice lived by real human beings is by reading the blogs that several devotees are maintaining. Not all of these blogs are exclusively focused on Adi Da Samraj and Adidam. But all of them give you a real sense for the authenticity, intelligence, creativity, and humanity that so many members of our community exhibit, each in their own unique way.

Note: The stories, commentary, and perspectives that you find in these blogs represent personal viewpoints, not official ones. The only voice truly representative of the Teaching of Adidam is that of Avatar Adi Da Samraj.

blog author
latest post date
Bill Worden September 01, 2016   Embraced By Pure Love
The Basket of Tolerance Film Series July 16, 2011   Roots & Elements of Modern Art
Global Cooperation March 17, 2010   RE: The Internet Nominated for Nobel Peace Prize
Bruce Czopek September 05, 2016   Western Cedar March 13, 2011   2011 dance & Art in Florence From Here to Eternity
Camel & February 28, 2011   Sacred Camel Retreats 2011 (& horses...)
PJ March 21, 2014   "Keep Away from the People who try to belittle your ambitions. Small People always do that, but the Really Great make you feel that you, too, can become great." -Mark Twain
Max Rykov February 14, 2010   Broken
Chris Tong January 01, 2011   The Devotee Feeds the Guru, and the Guru Feeds the Devotee
Bob Carroll April 08, 2015   untitled
Bill Worden lives in Northern California, and has been a devotee of Adi Da since 1997. Bill's blog is called Steps on The Path. Bill Worden

blog: Steps on the Path
author: Bill Worden
posted: September 01, 2016
entry: Embraced By Pure Love

There's a part of me that I like to call "The Love Enthusiast" . I fell madly in love with Linda Bruce when I was 10 years old. I obsessed over her for years. Love is an integral theme in my life story with Heartbreak Hotel's destination concluding many chapters. I even had a room for me reserved there. One chapter after another laced with wanting filled love and yearning for sex. Each portion of the life tale ending with an unfulfilled heart and soul. 

Parama Sapta Na Adi Da Samraj's Transmission is full of Love. The big difference- with His Love I never ended up in Heartbreak Hotel. When I was first starting out in my relationship with Him and being drawn to the practice that He gives I was sitting in contemplation and the most amazing thing happened. An energy started to descend down on me. Then it entered me. There was nothing that I was doing to make it happen. It took about 20 seconds to descend to my heart as it continued down. I recognized the feeling of it as Love. But this was different than any love I had ever experienced. The feeling was not of being loved by nor being in love with. It was simply that the most fundamental condition of existence is Love, Everything, Everywhere is Love. This follows suit to the Beatles in "Love is All there is" , and "God is Love" and many other aphorisms found throughout all time in every culture. Now mind you, this did not automatically become the all of my moment to moment experience. The full blown feeling of it only lasted a short while, then I was back to the usual experience of engaging life- seeking love, happiness and pleasure and its short lived satisfaction when and if it came. 

Trying to describe what Adi Da is like is difficult because He is totally different than anyone I've ever seen or known and I've rubbed elbows with a lot of people from high to low in many cultures spanning decades. The same goes for what He Transmits- Love, Happiness, Ecstasy, a deep well of Infinite Bliss are some words that come close. Adi Da would sit with formal practitioners and Transmit His State. You would be drawn into this State of the True Self, God, Nirvana, and Enlightenment or any number of labels that are described in volume filled sacred texts throughout the world. I participated in these sittings many times. Each time the feeling of Love and Happiness would occur no matter what state I was in before the sitting. Every time it was His Doing. As the years progressed it became a part of the process in His Company. Feeling the Transmission of His State then feeling mine. The depth of my condition, the suffered human condition has started to become unraveled. The depth of His Condition, The Condition of the Divine has become more tangible. 

In 2008 I had the incredible opportunity to receive a hug from Him. Throughout my life I've hugged a lot of people, my mother, father and other family members, lovers and friends, casual acquaintances, even people that I really didn't want to be around. This hug was as different as He was in His Physical Embodiment. It was astonishing. As His Arms went around me and mine Him.
I didn't feel that I was embracing a human body. It felt that I was embracing and being embraced by Pure Love, even more, the Eternal Everlasting state known as Enlightenment, Nirvana, and The State of Real God- The Light. I "knew" that I was here on Earth on my knees in Fiji but was feeling something more. The energy that I had felt years earlier descending into my body was Adi Da. He is that energy, the fundamental "Love is All there is" that lies prior to the arising of forms. He is that Eternal, Indestructible, Light of Consciousness Itself, felt as Love, felt as Happiness. My Heartbreak Hotel has seen the wrecking ball. I am very much in love in a depthful meaningful relationship. My life is filled with happiness and pleasure. This life of laughter is His Product- a life that every devotee of Parama Sapta Na Adi Da Samraj has or will have. 

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The Adidam Los Angeles Community moderates the Basket of Tolerance Film Series blog. The series is free, and is held at the Adidam Bookstore of Los Angeles. Tea service included.

blog: The Basket of Tolerance Film Series Presents
author: Adidam LA
posted: July 16, 2011
entry: Roots & Elements of Modern Art

July 30th - August 27th, 2011

This film series is presented in honor of Adi Da Samraj's upcoming solo exhibition at the Sundaram Tagore Gallery in Beverly Hills, from September 8th - October 8th, 2011. These film selections give an overview of art history and introduce some of the techniques and subjects used in Avatar Adi Da's image art. We conclude with a rare documentary about modernist painter Piet Mondrian, whose impulse to the spiritual dimensions of abstraction and non-representation in art is, in some sense, continued by Avatar Adi Da's Orpheus and Linead One suites, which are featured in this exhibition.

How Art Made the World: Part 1
Saturday, July 30th, 2pm

The documentary series How Art Made the World is a landmark. Host Dr. Nigel Spivey, a Classical Archaeology professor from Cambridge, asserts that not only have cultures thrived according to their abilities to communicate visually, but also that, though art, we can historically trace human needs and desires because our minds drive us to create images. (60 minutes)

Episode Two - The Day Pictures Were Born: "¨The discovery of prehistoric cave paintings in the last century led to the shocking realisation that humans have been creating art for over 30,000 years. Episode two reveals how the very first pictures ever made were created, and how images may have triggered the greatest change in human history.

How Art Made the World: Part 2
Saturday, August 6th, 2pm

Questioning how and why art influences society, Dr. Nigel Spivey employs art criticism, archaeology, political theory, and anthropology in order to posit theories in each hour-long segment. Potent, smart, and interdisciplinary, this series, filmed mostly on-location for full-effect, really does prove that culture dictates art. (60 minutes)

Episode Four - Once Upon a Time"¨: Over seven billion people across the world are drawn to see the latest feature films in the cinema. This episode reveals how the most powerful storytelling medium ever created exploits visual techniques invented by artists in the ancient world.

Calligraphy & Photography
Saturday, August 13th, 2pm

A Look at the History of Calligraphy; the Art of the Written Word: This documentary gives a brief overview of the history and development of calligraphy. The various influences are presented, from landmark achievements such as the Book of Kells to the artistic revival of Edward Johnston. However, the objective is not only to look at history; with the help of three experienced calligraphers, look at the current and future potential of this unique art form. (24 minutes)

George Eastman House: Picture Perfect: 
Located on the estate of the man who made Kodak a household word, the George Eastman House celebrates the art, technology, and impact of photography and motion pictures. This program goes behind the scenes with curators and archivists at Eastman's colonial revival mansion in Rochester, New York"”now the oldest photography museum in the world"”to showcase its famous collections. The Eastman House is a vital stop on the journey to understanding visual literacy. (28 minutes)

The Nude in Art
Saturday, August 20th, 2pm

If there is one genre of art that seems to have played a greater role than any other, it is the nude. For at least 30,000 years, humans have represented the naked form in a variety of ways. From the ideal to the real, the Romantic to the Surrealist, there has been almost no end of works devoted to the unclothed human body. This series will examine those artworks, the societies that produced them, and the artists that made them. (50 minutes)

Piet Mondrian (Mr. Boogie-Woogie Man)
Saturday, August 27th, 2pm

An in-depth look at influential 20th-century Dutch painter Piet Mondrian and his works, from early rural landscapes to his masterpiece, "Broadway Boogie-Woogie," rendered in his signature style, Neo-Plasticism. Includes commentary from "Time" art critic Robert Hughes, composer Louis Andriessen, and designer Terence Conran on Mondrian's influence both within and outside the art world. This rare and stirring portrait of Dutch painter Piet Mondrian explores how jazz music inspired his art, and how his style exerted international influence on painting, architecture, interior decor, furniture, design, and typography. (49 minutes)

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The Global Cooperation blog is informally associated with The Global Cooperation Project.

blog: Global Cooperation
author: The Global Cooperation Project
posted: March 17, 2010
entry: RE: The Internet Nominated for Nobel Peace Prize

So – do you think the Internet should be given the Nobel Peace Prize? Funny if the U.S. Department of Defense – that funded the technology enabling the Internet in the 1960s, would win the prize for peace! OK, so much has happened since that work of the U.S. military’s Department of Advanced Research Projects, that resulted in the ARPANET – the first system to connect computers at distance in 1969. So maybe they don’t get to walk on stage to collect the prize.

Nobel Peace Prize

But back to the substance of the question – what has the Internet done to enable “... fraternity between nations .. the abolition or reduction of standing armies and .. the promotion of peace congresses."? Well, plenty – if you look around. The Internet has weakened the control of various authoritarian regimes, by enabling the forces of popular democracy to organize and build support. Online campaigns have enabled major change of all kinds. And we could say that violence has many causes, with ignorance, disunity, and poverty being very common, and that clearly, the Internet can have a positive effect on all three. Of course the Internet can also be a tool to plan violence – as Al Queda has demonstrated. Perhaps the full potential of the Internet in the realm of peace has yet to be seen.

In his book Not-Two Is Peace Adi Da says “The Internet is an indispensable and, altogether, key and central tool–unique and new to global humankind–for organizing, implementing, and surely (in every practical sense) happening the global cooperative order of the totality of humankind. Therefore, the Internet should immediately be made thus to serve.” He goes on to say that “The necessary and immediate tool for the collective organizing of the total human population in Earth is the Internet!” Adi Da’s basic point here is that the only way things are going to change for the better (which they must – and soon, to avoid catastrophe) is the force of EVERYONE standing up for the collective interests of the planet. And the only vehicle for such a movement to arise, and manage the necessary change, is the Internet.

They gave the Nobel Peace Prize to Barack Obama last year because he provided leadership and hope that great things – towards peace, could be achieved. Maybe the same kind of thinking points to the Internet as a worthy recipient for the next one.

For more on Adi Da’s instructions on Peace please see The Global Cooperation Project website.

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Bruce Czopek was born in Norfolk Virginia in 1952. Grew up in Southern Arizona and spent most of his adult life in the San Francisco Bay area and in Reno/ Lake Tahoe. During that time, he was fortunate to have a successful faux finishing business. In 2003, he moved to Kauai Island, Hawaii, to manage the Da Love-Ananda Mahal Retreat Sanctuary and is still there. He paints too. Bruce Czopek

blog: Czopek's LIP (Life In Progress)
author: Bruce Czopek
posted: September 05, 2016
entry: Western Cedar

From a day hike on a section of the Pacific Crest Trail


Western Cedar. Photo by brucee Czopek***


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The blog is maintained by a group of devotees associated with the production of, based on Dante Alighieri's “La Divina Commedia” ("The Divine Comedy"). The backdrops from this production are from the 'Linead – Eurydice' suite by Adi Da Samraj.

author: art group
posted: March 13, 2011
entry: 2011 dance & Art in Florence From Here to Eternity Dante / Adi Da Samraj / Florence

Last year this incredible group of artists musicians and dancers created This year our goal is to bring this event on tour around Europe and the world.

The first stop is The 22nd Florence Dance Festival at the Bargello National Museum in Florence Italy. The Festival is now shaping up to include some of the best ballet companies in Italy. Come to Florence this june to experience and some of the best Italian Ballet companies in the breathtaking courtyard at the home of Italy's largest Collection of Sculptural Art at the Bargello Museum.

Divina stands for Dante's Divine Comedy which this Ballet Theatre Event is based on in 3 half hour parts: Inferno, Purgatorio, and Paradiso. .com stands for the inter connectedness of the Internet which brings the world together at this time. This event has it's roots in the great Poem of Dante and in the great myth's of Greek Civilization filtered up through Florence by Dante and out to the world. This classical Dance Presentation embodies the scenes and feelings of the Italian and Greek roots that are also preserved in the architecture of Central Florence with Dante's home only a few blocks from the sight of this year's Festival.

Keith Ferrone the Director of the Florence Dance Company speaks about the upcoming Festival at the Bargello Museum where for the second year in a row the Florence Dance Company has the opportunity to present a spectacular and world class Event on June 29th, 30th and July 1st amidst a Festival with some of the best ballet companies in Italy:

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Stuart Camps maintains the Camel & blog, which is about the Sacred Camel & Horse Gardens, and is inspired and guided by Adi Da and the late bull camel, Jingle Baba. Stuart Camps

blog: Camel &
author: Stuart Camps
posted: February 28, 2011
entry: Sacred Camel Retreats 2011 (& horses...)

Providing time and space for humans to 'drop out' and deepen in feeling amid gentle Bactrian camels, horses and other non-humans living their true nature.

The Sacred Camel & Horse Gardens of Da Fear-No-More is a place where Sanctuary is already present. We invite people to enter, refresh, let go and reconnect with life's purpose. Integral to this process are the animals who live in natural Divine Contemplation and wordlessly draw us to do likewise.

These are camping retreats - in tents, under stars! (Housing with amenities is available if required.) Your campsite, beside the camel herd, is near a beautiful swimming lake. Delicious vegetarian meals are served throughout. Relaxing massages are available on request. The days are full, evenings are rich and retreat guides are knowledgeable and supportive. A weekend with our family of camels, humans and horses will move and inspire you for years to come.

Retreats are open to anyone...

Retreat Fees: (deposit due upon registration)
Award -- $fee (at discretion of management, please ask)
Discount -- $200 (monthly supporters of camels & horses)
Standard -- $300
Groups -- $ negotiable (family, friends, 'corporate', birthdays, etc.)

Write to reserve your place. A release waiver will be sent to you for return with 50% deposit. Once registered you will be forwarded
1. travel directions 2. list of what to bring 3. retreat materials and daily schedule 4. preparation reading list. See retreat dates below.

-- Fear-No-More Zoo, 12040 Seigler Springs Road, Middletown, CA 95461 USA
-- (707) 355-0638

Retreat Dates 2011

MAY    Friday 20    7pm  >>  Sunday 22    5pm
OCT     Friday 21    7pm  >>  Sunday 23    5pm

Stuart Camps (retreat guide)

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PJ is an artist who is "grateful to be a participant in the Mysterious creative process". Her blog, Jazmine Arts, focuses on her art. PJ

blog: Jazmine Arts
author: P J
posted: March 21, 2014
entry: "Keep Away from the People who try to belittle your ambitions. Small People always do that, but the Really Great make you feel that you, too, can become great." -Mark Twain

The quote at the top of this post was sent to me by a friend who threw me a life line.  I am sharing with you below the e-mail she wrote to me because it is so useful:

I'm reading 2 books now that are changing how I'm thinking about pretty much everything.  The books are "The Gift of Play" by Barbara Brenner and "Play" by Stuart Brown.  Although both authors agree that it is almost impossible to create a definition of "play" since it is so different for everyone, the key elements are:

- apparently purposeless (not done for practical value, money, etc.)
- voluntary (no one is making you do it)
- inherently attractive (fun and makes you feel good)
- freedom from time (lose sense of time when doing it)
- diminished consciousness of self (stop worrying and thinking about ourselves)
- improvisational potential (potential for serendipity and chance)
- continuation desire (desire to keep doing it)

Both authors talk about the vital importance of keeping play in our lives, which includes everything from physical health, having a healthy brain in later life (like a 63% better chance of having a healthy brain), creativity, emotional balance, etc. and that the elimination of play is the root cause of many problems in children as well as adults, like ADD, ADHD, depression, violence, anti-social behavior, problem solving abilities.  There are studies that supposedly show that the one common attribute among the most violent criminals is that they didn't have a chance to play as children.  In Stuart's book, he described some recent problems they were having at NASA's JPL (where most of the engineering for the space program is done) with the new, younger people they were hiring.  Many of their older employees recently retired, so JPL started recruiting the best of the best college graduates from all over the country, but found that these new employees were not good at problem solving or finding creative solutions for things.  They did an extensive study and found that many of the older employees who had retired had grown up "playing" by taking things apart to see how they worked and then figuring out how to put them back together.  The newer employees at JPL did not do this growing up, but instead focused on book reading and academics and never learned how to "play" this way to solve problems.  So now JPL has questions during their interview process to see how much the interviewee has "played" with the types of things they do at JPL.  Both books keep pointing out how purposeless playing that is done just because you find it interesting and love to do it, leads to health and well-being.  .
I was having an hard time figuring out how I like to play until I read the following "play personalities" In Stuart's book.  He came up with these through his observations of people, although he says these are just basic categories and were created so he could address the "engineering" types at corporations who needed to have things more defined:

The Joker
The most basic and extreme player throughout history is the joker.  A joker's play always revolves around some kind of nonsense.  Indeed nonsense is the first type of human play we engage in: all baby talk begins with nonsense.  Parents make infants laugh by making silly sounds, blowing raspberries, and generally being foolish.  Later the class clown finds social acceptance by making other people laugh.  Adult jokers carry on that social strategy.

The Kinesthete
Kinesthetes are people who like to move, who - in the words of Sir Ken Robinson - "need to move in order to think."  This category includes athletes, as well as those who find themselves happiest when moving as part of dance, swimming or walking.  Kinesthetes naturally want to push their bodies and feel the results.   They may be those who do football, yoga, dance or jump rope.  While kinesthetes play games, competition is not the main focus - it is only a forum for engaging in their favorite activity.

The Explorer
Each of us started out our lives by exploring the world around us.  Some people never lose their enthusiasm for it.  Exploration becomes their preferred avenue into the alternative universe of play - their way of remaining creative and provoking the imagination.  Exploring can by physical - literally going to new places.  Alternatively, it can be emotional - searching for a new feeling or deepening of the familiar through music, movement, flirtation.  It can be mental:  researching a new subject or discovering new experiences and points of view while remaining in your armchair.

The Competitor
The competitor is a person who breaks through into euphoria and creativity of play by enjoying a competitive game with specific rules and enjoys playing to win.  The competitor loves fighting to be number 1.  If games and keeping score are your thing, this may be your primary play personality.  The games can be solitary, or social - either a solitary video game or a team game like baseball - and they may be actively participated in or observed as a fan.  Competitors make themselves know in social groups, were the fun comes from being the top person in the group, or in business, in which money or perks serve to keep score.

The Director
Directors enjoy planning and executing scenes and events.  Though many are unconscious of their motives and style of operating, they love the power, even when they're playing in the B-movie league.  They are born organizers.  At their best, they are party givers, the instigators of great excursions to the beach, the dynamic center of the social world.  At worst, they are manipulators.  All the world's a stage, and the rest of us are only players in the director's game.

The Collector
What good is a world of random objects?  The thrill of play for the collector is to have and to hold the most, the best, the most interesting collection of objects and experiences.  Coins, toy trains, antiques, plastic purses, wine shoes, ties, video clips of race car crashes, or pieces of the crashed car themselves, anything and everything is fair game.

The Artist/Creator
For the artist/creator, joy is found in making things.  Painting, print making, wood-working, pottery, and sculpture are well-known activities of artist/creators, but furniture making, knitting, sewing, gardening and decorating a room or a house are also in their purview.  Artist/creators may end of showing their creations to the world and even selling them for millions, or may never show anyone what they make.  The point is to make something - to make something beautiful, something functionally, something goofy.  Or just to make something work - like fixing a pump.

The Storyteller
For the storyteller, the imagination is the key to the kingdom of play.  Storytellers are, of course, novelists, playwrights, cartoonists, and screenwriters, but they are also those whose greatest joy is reading those novels and watching those movies, people who make themselves part of the story, who experience the thoughts and emotions of characters in the story.  Performers of all sorts are storytellers, creating an imaginative world through dance, acting, magic tricks or lectures.  Because the realm of the storyteller is in the imagination, they can bring, play to almost any activity.
"You can discover more about a person in an hour of play than in a year of conversation."
"• Plato




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Max Rykov is a relatively new devotee of Adi Da Samraj, who lives in Alabama. The focus of his blog, The Secret of The Heart, is his devotional and spiritual relationship with Adi Da Samraj. Max Rykov

blog: The Secret of the Heart
author: Max Rykov
posted: February 14, 2010
entry: Broken

I’m realizing more and more that losing face is what The Way of the Heart is all about. If face isn’t lost, there is still something being held on to. Still a limit on communion with Bhagavan Adi Da. And losing face is about being utterly broken. We can’t love. We are Narcissus. We are philosophically predisposed to believe that we are unloved and disconnected for the Source. That is heart breaking. To know that the only way to love is to totally give yourself up to Reality is heart breaking.

When I look a Bhagavan Adi Da, i see an immense vulnerable Being of Love. He has no defenses, no ego strategies. He is totally given over to everyone. His radical Love breaks my heart.

Without Him, I am Narcissus, i am looking at my own reflection, protecting self. Living this relationship breaks you though. It makes you vulnerable. Bhagavan Talks about the Wound of Love frequently. It is a wound that never heals, it is always painful and it is always happy. We must endure love. We must suffer it. We’ve got to walk around broken with no faces!

It doesn’t make any difference what “you” do, think, whatever…Reality is Always Already the Case! Always! You can’t change it, add to it, make it not what it is.

It is important to understand what our contraction means. It is all about saving face, protecting “self” from the demand of love. That’s all.

We MU?ST be happy. We know in every moment what it would feel like to be perfectly free and happy, so we need to just do it!. Adi Da Is here, and we have been given the Greatest Gift possible. The utter sacrifice that He Is allows us to do the same, to feel Love and live in relation to the Heart directly.

What i’ve also gained an appreciation for recently is how exactly the Way of the Heart is intrinsically egoless.

it is not the ego that responds or recognizes Bhagavan Adi Da. It is the heart that spontaneously recognizes Him. It goes beyond ego at the beginning. So, it is not about conforming the ego to Him, it’s about forgetting it altogether and allowing that spontaneous heart recognition and response guide your entire life. And this responsibility of practice requires being broken, requires living via the feeling heart. Otherwise, you live as the ego; scared, searching, self-protective. So this is a great demand, one that destroys the entire foundation of your separate existence.

I just had a funny little dream. Bhagavan always breaks my heart in dreams.

In the dream, someone asked Adi Da what the weather was for the day, and He Replied: “Only God!

So, with Bhagavan Adi Da’s most exquisite meteorological prowess on our side, let’s get ready for a day and an eternity of perfect weather!

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Chris Tong lives in Northern California, and has been a devotee of Adi Da since 1989. Chris's blog, The Adi Da Up Close Blog, lists recent postings from the Adi Da Up Close website. Chris Tong

blog: The Adi Da Up Close Blog
author: Chris Tong
posted: January 01, 2011
entry: The Devotee Feeds the Guru, and the Guru Feeds the Devotee

Chris Tong has been a devotee of Adi Da Samraj since 1989. He is one of the founders of this website. You can read his biographical information in the About Us section.

My earliest Darshan

My mother was a true pioneer. After spending ten years in a Catholic convent as a nun, she decided that it wasn't truly the spiritual life she had longed for . . . she hadn't found God there, just a group of well-intentioned but rather ordinary women, and the egos that tend to butt up against each other whenever communal living is attempted. So she left the convent and entered the graduate program in mathematics at Columbia University, where she met "” and then married "” my father, who was a brilliant young professor of mathematics there.[7] With his help, she completed her Ph.D. and became the first woman professor of mathematics at Columbia University in the late 1950's.

Her specialty, which she taught undergraduate students in her classes, was "transfinite numbers" "” the study of different kinds of infinities.[1] Little did she know that an Infinity of a very different kind would enter her classroom! Many years later, she would tell me she had a student named Franklin Jones, who stood out in her memory because, after class, He would always be down at the front of the classroom with a crowd of students gathered around Him. In 1988, Franklin "” Adi Da "” would give a talk that drew upon this curious notion of "different kinds of infinities" that my mother taught, and, as was His way, turned it into a profound lesson about Realization:

Infinity is a convenience of mathematics. Some "wag" mathematician suggested some time ago that there are a number of different kinds of infinities. . . . You think you're working toward infinity as if it's an end number, having begun with zero. . . . . You are under the illusion that you can be "infinite", you can be "nothing", and you can be "much". . . . This is your apelike illusion! . . . Infinity is simply a sign of the indefinite "” in other words, there is no number, "infinity". There's always "one more". . . . The Totality exceeds all limitation, and you are a participant in That, absolutely identified with It.

Avatar Adi Da Samraj, One More Monkey [4]

I was born in June, 1957, while my mother was teaching at Columbia. She would sometimes take me with her into class during my first year of life, which was rather unusual for the time "” but, as I said, my mother was a true pioneer. Adi Da began His studies at Columbia in September, 1957. When I asked her about it years later, my mother said she certainly would have brought me into the class He took with her.

So, even though I cannot remember it directly (and even though I will never know the full nature of its impact on my life and its course), any story about me finding my Guru must begin with the earliest time He Graced me with His Darshan!

The happiest moment of my early life

The happiest moment of my early life occurred in 1970, when I was thirteen. My family had just moved into a new house in a new town. I was setting up and cleaning my new room, and was listening to a song on the radio, when an overwhelming Revelation of the inherent Happiness of Reality washed over me. I was incredibly happy! And that moment was imprinted on me, to the point where, whenever I would hear that song in later years (even now), I would reconnect with that moment and that Happiness. Naturally, having no greater understanding at the time, I attributed the experience to the circumstance itself. But, these many years later, I can look back and know (with much more life experience under my belt) that just being in a new house and listening to a particular song can be pleasurable, but it doesn't send me into an overwhelming state of ecstasy!

It would only be years later that I would make the connection that the day I had that Revelation, September 10, 1970, was the day my Spiritual Master, Adi Da Samraj, re-Awakened to Divine Self-Realization. And it was clear in retrospect that His Realization washed over me and many other beings on that day, like an immense explosion spreading outward across the entire cosmos. I was not yet His devotee, of course "” He would not begin formally accepting devotees until 1972. But from that moment on, He began meditating His future devotees, and so I'm very happy to be able to describe what it was like to be on the receiving end of that Great Meditation that He described in His autobiography, The Knee Of Listening:

In this most perfect Realization of Non-separateness [on September 10, 1970], many extraordinary Divine Siddhis suddenly, spontaneously appeared. . . I spontaneously began to "meditate" countless other people, and also countless non-human beings, and countless places and worlds and realms, both high and low in the scale of Reality. I observed and responded to all that was required for the Awakening and the true (and the Ultimate) well-being of each and all. And, each time I did this (and, in fact, the process quickly became the underlying constant of all my hours and days), I would continue the "meditating" of any (and each) one until I felt a release take place, such that his or her suffering and seeking was vanished (or, at least, significantly relaxed and set aside). Whenever that occurred, I Knew my "meditating" of that one was, for the moment, done. By such means, my now and forever Divine Work (by Which I must Teach, and Bless, and Awaken all and All) began.

Avatar Adi Da Samraj, The Knee Of Listening

Adi Da once said that His impact on His devotees' lives was so profound that it could even change their past. I wonder a little about that possibility as I write this story of "finding" Him in this lifetime, and see these various moments that suggest He was in my life long before I ever "knew" of Him! But perhaps it is just as He once said to another devotee: "When are you going to learn that our relationship doesn't depend on time and space?"

Whatever may be the case, it certainly makes writing this story much easier! "” since it is not merely a story about "my life", but the story of Adi Da entering my life from the very start. . . and then over and over again.

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